CHRIS BROWN GETS EMOTIONAL :

   Chris Brown expressed himself in an introspective manner on Instagram  on Tuesday (July 21). In the long and candid caption, Breezy addressed God, self-destruction and how he feels he’s misunderstood or mistaken.

“What’s on the surface always looks like one big party, but inside there is a little boy looking for help and guidance,” Brown captioned the pic. “People say ’be a man.’ Yeah, that’s right but it doesn’t take away any pain you really go through. I just wanna stay out the way and do music.”
From his post I was able to deduce he was trying to make a point on self-hatred, in one of his recent post he said he does not have patience for anything that will cause him to self-destruct.